Really, really scared.
I’m not perfect.
I haven’t arrived.
I’m a mother, who, in the weakness and frailty of her humanity, worries about her children.
And I was scared.
And it was time for follow-up scans.
Time to take another look. Time to see if the “area of concern” found in September was stable, or if it wasn’t…
How could I not worry?
But what about faith?
That’s part of the beauty of trusting Him, part of the beauty of that peace that passes understanding.
I don’t understand it, but I’ve experienced it.
Fear, but not fear without hope.
Worry, but not worry without hope.
So when it came time for Ian to have another set of follow-up scans, I didn’t have a sure & unshakable faith that Ian would remain cancer-free, but I did have a sure & unshakable faith in Him. I knew that “everything would be OK”, no matter what that series of MRI scans showed. Our eternity was secure, even if our present tense was scary and filled with trials and tribulations.
That’s how I got through that day.
And that’s how you can get through it, too.
Look to Him. Lean on Him. Trust in Him.
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7 KJV